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The Whorecology of Casting Dirty Movies September 22, 2008

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As indicated in the first post of this blog I work in the wondrous world of adult entertainment. Primarily I provide the service of getting the newest DVD releases to your local porn establishment. A secondary skill I acquired, production managing. That’s right folks I get the pleasure of dealing with people on set while we have casual conversations about target, smoothies, movies, family and friends …all while being oblivious to some ones erection or the fact the girl is wiping her vagina while speaking to you. Dream Job, I know!  :::Insert sarcasm here:::

 

Part of this amazing task as production manager means the roomie and I get to pick out the girls and guys for our flicks. Which is not too bad since I work for a very couples friendly company. I’m not calling anyone and asking what a girls rate for double anal or something absurd like that. But what does suck … being a woman judging other women. Nothing does more of a mental mind fuck to you then ruling out a girl who is too chubby but weighs less then you, has too many tattoos but you have 1 more then her, she’s too old but your 4 years older or a girl who’s extensions suck…well that’s her issue, find a new stylist …you make enough!

Being a girl who has dealt with the deluxe special edition package issues, it gets to me sometimes. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t cry myself to sleep by any means … after all they are choosing to be on camera naked. Everyone in the biz is an adult and has made their own life decisions. However, it’s a strange thing to be so judgmental physically off of a 10 picture photoset of a naked girl. I hear myself saying things like… “She’s too chubby for camera”, “She looks like a bird”, “Wow! What was she thinking when she got that tattoo!”, “Ok seriously whoever did her tit job should be executed … she needs a refund!”, “I didn’t know vaginas came in that color!”

Our office water cooler talk is not for the faint of heart. Worst of all when you get into the mindset of casting beautiful naked women, you start “casting” yourself. Not literally people! When you see your own naked body in the mirror you start finding all the flaws that you have seen on the other girls … and you can hear your own voice repeating the mean things you said earlier in the day.

The reason I started thinking about this is because I recently lost 20 pounds. I wasn’t fat but I certainly wasn’t skinny. I’m also no supermodel, but I pull off cute and bubbly well. I lost the weight and glam-ed it up a little for myself … to make me feel better. Surprisingly it brought up some issues I didn’t expect to encounter. Such as “Friends” I have known for years suddenly talking to me like a piece of ass when before I was their homie. Colleagues who I thought respected my thoughts and opinions were now more interested in playing grab ass then what I had to say. That is a bit of a mental mind fuck as well. I started feeling what it must feel like for the girls who get casted. Being judged strictly on appearance maybe right up there with the awesomeness of getting your toenails pulled out. Suddenly I was in a live action casting! Don’t get me wrong, most Hollywood bars are essentially the same thing and is expected, but when it starts happening with friends and colleagues … well it’s just feels much more “and behind door number 2 we have the new and improved Miss Communication!”. It also gives you a bad outlook on intentions of anything with a penis …well a worse outlook.

I have a job to do, so I cast the girls that best fit the look we portray. I have my life to live and I need to feel happiest with me. But it doesn’t mean I can’t try and make both experiences more positive. After recent profound conclusions I have decided to make a conscious effort to be nicer in the things I say when making casting decisions and most of all be nicer to myself when standing buck ass naked in front of a mirror. After all, no one likes someone who is stuck on packaging only.

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2 Responses to “The Whorecology of Casting Dirty Movies”

  1. what can you do? you’re just doing your job.
    CONGRATS on dropping 20 pounds! I am sure you are so much happier now 🙂

  2. Pants Says:

    Wow! I couldn’t agree with you more! You know how I feel sometimes about the way we have to judge those girls, but it is their job to look good. Though I have been feeling the same way about watching what I say. I hate judging though it is part of the job.


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