So, I just got back from my annual family trip, that last year became a huge milestone in my life. Never more than this past weekend have I realized what a great idea my ex had by proposing on such an occasion. My usual family fun week will be forever haunted by the huge mistake that I almost made. Ok, maybe forever is pushing it a bit, but for dramatic purposes just go with it. Through some time to think during this mini va-kay I realized how the “artist” ruined this occasion that I look forward to every year! He was actually quite smart to think of it. I’m not sure if it was the “artists” plan to do such a thing, but I wouldn’t put it past him and if you knew him, neither would you. Now, I’m not gonna lie, I did pretty damn well with keeping myself together. If not for my amazing family, friend/roommate and some really feel good texts it would have been the perfect weekend to take a long walk off a short pier if you catch my drift. I kind of felt like this year everyone was looking at me like I had just fallen flat on my face and they were just waiting to see if I got up…Annnnnd she’s okay!!!
What some may not know is that I have been going on this family vacation for about 15 years now, so please don’t think that I have let this one douchebag that use to be in my life ruin something that is a wonderful tradition.. hell no! But what you should know is that it is a speed bump in fun when you are reminded of a life you use to live and the failure that you feel. I couldn’t even begin to explain to you how hard I worked on that damn relationship for the last year with not one ounce of anything in return! Bitter party of one your table is now ready…haha. But seriously, his weekend was a little rough, but not nearly as much as I thought it would be. I’m not really sure how to react to that as well, if’s an awesome thing or just plain sad, but I’m gonna go with it’s a good thing in this case. I am very fortunate to have learned my lesson early and before a novel of paperwork was added to it!!
My dad (the most amazing man in my life) helped me through most of this weekend, almost stopping to pick up a bottle of champagne to toast and remind me of how proud he was of me and that we had bigger and better things to toast to this year! The best part of my proposal was the part that my dad came up with. Knowing my love of fireworks he timed everything perfectly that year and this year along with my uncles made sure that this year outdid all others!! It was an awesome thing and I couldn’t have asked for anything better. I know that it was not intended just for my entertainment, but deep down inside, we both knew what every little thing meant to me this year. And in getting all whoremotional, I want to thank my family, my AMAZING roommate who has been there for me through everything! And for the most awesome text from her that night, especially (you have no idea what your words meant to me) and for another certain reminders every once and awhile that maybe I am worth some good things coming my way. Thank you!
So with lots of time to think on my long drive home by myself this year and with the soundtrack to “slit my wrist to” playing the whole way back, I have now declared that besides one more day this year I have made it through what I believe to be the worst of the storm.There are only a few high wind advisories left, but other than that I see nothing but clear skys (What’s up with the analogies today?!). Now please don’t think that this is all I thought of while I was on va-kay! Are you kidding me?! But, come on…this is only my first post since I’ve been back =) I can’t type nearly as fast as the whoremotions can fly!