… The Act of Being Whoremotional

Day 4 February 10, 2009

Day 3 actually went pretty well for me. I stayed away from my personal enemies (at least away from #1 until next weekend, haha) and am on the right track. I went to the mall and got myself some makeup that I have been wanting to try. Not retail therapy, I was very moderate with my new purchase. Trust me I wanted to buy WAY more. I met an elderly neighbors son today and offered assistance if it was needed to check on anything or what not. So, I’m working on the doing good things for myself and others. On to day 4.

Keeping a Journal

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think, we become.
-Siddhartha Gautama

I think that these posts would be considered somewhat a journal, but I do have a new pretty one that I bought from Anthropolgy! I may share alot on here, but hey a girl has to have her secrets right?! In this journal I have to take at least 15 minutes to write down all that is going through my head. How I’m feeling and all my emotions. Wait. I thought that my last day of crying was yesterday? Umm.. I tend to get very emotional and this could bring on tears. Well, at least they won’t be tears for my ex, they are just whoremotional tears. After I am done writing about me then I do the “Ex’s Time.” Now I write anything and everything I want to say about him. What I miss the most, miss the least. The insults he would give. When we first met and why I invested time in him. Who I thought he was and who he turned out to be. Hmmm..this could actually turn out to be a good exercise. I think I’m going to like this.

This is to be repeated after the journal entry and the journal is closed for the day:

I made it through another day safe, sound, and a little better than yesterday. Thanks to my own efforts, I even learned some valuable things about myself, whether I’m aware of it yet or not. I can’t wait to learn more, and to fill these pages with increasing wisdom and the joy that lies ahead.

Day 4 not so bad. I’m definitely feeling a little better everyday. I know that this time around it’s not as hard as when we first broke up. My heart still hurts at times and I’m really glad that I got this book, mainly so I know that I cannot…I WILL not fall back into that situation.


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