… The Act of Being Whoremotional

Day 11 February 17, 2009

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What’s the Prize?


Trust your hopes, not your fears.

-David Mahoney (more…)


Day 10 February 16, 2009

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So, I stayed away from my worst enemies. It was pretty easy this weekend actually. Even with Valentine’s Day and everything.  I think I’m actually starting to feel better about things. I’m keeping a positive attitude about things and doing what I can to help others as well.


Whose Reality is it Anyway?


When things go wrong, don’t go with them.

-Anonymous (more…)


Day 9 February 15, 2009

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Day 8 was actually a really good day. I went out with a friend. Saw a movie and had a good time. I rarely ever stopped to think about the fact that it was Valentine’s Day and that I was single this year. Big deal, so what.


Shattering Illusions


Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.

-Carl Jung (more…)


Day 8 February 14, 2009

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Yesterday was good. Went to a friends birthday and actually acted as the DD. I stayed away from my own worst enemies, though I say a guy that I would have loved to have made out with for hours with, but at least I thought this with a sober mind. Today is Valentine’s Day and it’s not always easy to go out and see everyone paired off, but I will not sit at home. I will go out and about, do my thing and I will be ok.


You’re Making Me Uncomfortable


I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship.

-Louisa May Alcott (more…)


Day 7 February 13, 2009

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So, Day 6 totally opened up my eyes. I have even started to use this positive manifesting towards other people. I met a guy that was going through a rough spot and seemed to be a little down and a little negative. I got into the conversation of the fact that he can’t think how he has been thinking. Positive thinking gets you positive results. I watched his face as he let that sink in. The next thing I knew I was getting hi-fived and there was a smile on his face. Yay me! I was excited to pass that way of thinking on. Now, on to Day 7.


Life 101


It is good to act as if. It is even better to grow to the point where it is no longer an act.

-Charles Caleb Colton (more…)


Day 6 February 12, 2009

Day 5 went well. I am still staying away fom my worst enemies. I have been going to the gym and not going crazy on comfort food, but if someone could get rid of all the cookies in the world that would be great. Thanks (in advance)! I have not been able to be so great in my journal, but I will definitely make up for it. On to Day 6.

Manifesting Your Beautiful Life

Don’t let other people tell you what you want.
-Pat Riley (more…)


Day 5 February 11, 2009

As far as Day 4 is concerned, this whole keeping a journal thing is pretty nice. Obviously having the blog is great too! But in my journal I get to put it all out on the table. I have had a journal before, but I forgot how good it is to just put it all out there. I am the kind of person that keeps things pretty much locked up until one day I totally explode. Writing things down in a journal just makes me feel like it has all been said. Having it said then makes me feel like I can then walk away from it and start looking at something else, not just dwelling on my certain feelings about something. I think keeping a journal is something I will keep up with even after these 30 days.

Being Your Own Best Friend

The wise don’t expect to find life worth living, they make it that way.
-Anonymous (more…)


Day 4 February 10, 2009

Day 3 actually went pretty well for me. I stayed away from my personal enemies (at least away from #1 until next weekend, haha) and am on the right track. I went to the mall and got myself some makeup that I have been wanting to try. Not retail therapy, I was very moderate with my new purchase. Trust me I wanted to buy WAY more. I met an elderly neighbors son today and offered assistance if it was needed to check on anything or what not. So, I’m working on the doing good things for myself and others. On to day 4.

Keeping a Journal

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think, we become.
-Siddhartha Gautama (more…)


Day 3 February 9, 2009

Ooooook, so day 2 didn’t go as smoothly as I would have liked. Ummm.. I kinda went for my own worst enemies #1 and #3. I know, I know, there are rules that I am suppose to be following, but I really didn’t think I was going to go for #3, but #1 took over! And this is not an excuse, but I was not drinking to forget about my ex, even though his name was brought up because I was telling a friend about the most recent events. I did not call him or text him either! Uhhh, does this mean I have to start over?! I hope not. Let’s just move on to day #3.

Your Last Day of Crying and the Rules About Him

When you’re busy fighting alligators, it’s easy to forget you have friends on the shore.
-Pat Love (more…)


Day 2 February 8, 2009

Day 2 of my 30 day heartbreak cure. Quick recap for day one. The whole eating thing didn’t go as great as I thought, but I was also really busy. I didn’t eat all day and then stuffed my face at night and yes there were chocolate covered raisins involved. Did it make me feel better? No, but man they were good! As far as the crying it just come in spurts when I’m alone and of course when the whoremotional music is on. Now onward to Day 2.

More Rules, More Crying

Take away the cause and the effect ceases.
-Miguel De Cervantes



Day One February 7, 2009

Ok, so today is day one of my heartbreak 30 day challenge. I must say that the beginning intro had me at hello. This book is filled with quotes and right off the bat I knew that this was going to be good. In the intro of I wanna hold your hand, there is a quote.

Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. -Anonymous

Wow. Isn’t that the truth. I guess I never really take the time to stop and think about that though. It’s so simple to realize that we can control the way we deal with things and how we allow ourselves to feel. So far, this book has got me.

So the Intro pretty much just lets however is reading the book, aka muah, that they are not alone. The lady who wrote the book (Catherine Hickland) realizes how important it is to make you feel like you are not alone during this process. I’m not too sure how someone telling me that through a book is working for me, but hey I’m new to this whole self help thing.

The Rules: Cry Yourself a River
On day one, today, I can cry all I want and am able to do so for the next three days. Good thing cause I was showering this morning and wasn’t quite sure what was sprraying more water out, the shower head or me. Though crying is allowed, isolating myself is not. I’m not too big on that anyways, but I tend to be a bit of an eeyore when I’m sad.

I almost stopped in my tracks though, when I say the bold print of No Retail Therapy.Really?! Dammit! (more…)


Self Inflicted Open Heart Surgery February 6, 2009

The headline couldn’t explain it better. So, recently my history has been back to open up old wounds. My last relationship which was a very long and drawn out one ended almost a year ago. I have moved on with my life and gone through everything in between. About a week ago, I decided to crash out early one night. I was awoken by my phone ringing with a very familiar number on it, but no name. I tiredly picked up the phone and it was my ex. Apparently he had been doing some drinking and thinking. The only thing I was thinking was where his girlfriend was while he was calling me. He instantly went into’ I really care about you” mode with the” are you ok’s” and “how have you been’s”. Of course I asked the same. We started chatting it up about old times of course and then he threw a curve ball at me. He told me that he still loved me very much, was in love with me and was ready to do whatever it takes to get me back. Are you still standing? Cause I wasn’t! (more…)